Undecided.

I fear I may be getting old. It seems I have a very short span of time to do "things." I'm twenty three, I have a one year lease on an apartment, and a job. Going back to the apartment, I sometimes (seldom and fleetingly) feel a little trapped with the whole one-year-lease thing. As my great Mama told me once, "you will do big things." I would like to live up to this. Is living in the city, working as an Account Executive, "big?" Possibly. It could be. I'm not complaining, it is, in theory, a glamorous and fun lifestyle. I do enjoy Europe though. I always pictured myself gallivanting in Europe post-University. Don't get me wrong, I am in no way disappointed with how i live or my life thus far. There are pangs sometimes though. Not pangs of disappointment, they are, more specifically, what I like to call Europe Pangs. Lately I have also developed a fondness for the Australians. In any case, I simply feel there is not enough time for all I want to do. I truly would like to live in Europe for roughly a year. But I am living in the city for a year now. And in 2 or 3 years I will have to start looking for a husband, and the best place to do this is New York. It is logical and practical. So when does Europe fit in? Next year? Will I quit my job and move there? What about all my stuff? My bed, my brand new bed? What exactly will i do in Europe? Where in Europe? Will I be too homesick without my family or friends? Again, what exactly will i be doing in Europe? However, what is most important is, in 10 years, will I look back on my life and regret not gallivanting in Europe for a year? I am undecided about many things, but i am sure the answer to that is a resounding YES. yes, i would be disappointed. because when else can i do something like that? I feel like everything is happenining NOW. It's my 20's...i need to do...stuff. Going to Europe for a year is unpractical and it pains me to say that it will probbbably not happen. (exaggerated 'b's done purposely). Right now I just don't know. I do love my aparmtent though. I can see the Empire State Building from my bedroom. Don't you just love the Empire State Building? It is absolutely my favorite building in the whole wide world. It really is. I feel so empowered whenever i see it or walk by it. It sounds cliche, but it makes me feel like the world is all mine for the taking. I Love New York. And Paris. End.

Songwriting

Mandy and I like to come up with re-mixes of popular songs. One of our personal bests was turning "Hey there Delilah" by the Plain White Tees into "Hey Aunt Jemimah" - a truly touching rendition of the song, showing our admiration and respect for Aunt Jemimah and the art of the pancake. Another exciting burst of songwriting creativity came to me today circa 1pm. Our next endeavor may be turning "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis into "Eating Lunch." With the chorus being: "I keep eating, I keep keep eating...lunch." Let's just say we've taken Al Yankovich to a whole new level. Mandy-I will discuss this further with you o'er the weekend.

Intro

Remember that day (or maybe you don't) when you first realized you could color within the lines of the pictures in your coloring book? You know, when you moved from 'random scribbler' to 'yes, the green on the mermaids tail is only on the tail, and nowhere else on the page!' Firstly, I'd like to apologize for the previous sentence. It was a run-on, and if you were reading this blog out loud (not sure why you would be reading this blog out loud) i hope you took a breath somewhere in the middle.

Well I remember the day I colored within the lines. I was so proud! I was really grown up then. It's funny how when you're really young, you have no spatial boundaries. When, exactly, does the switch come into play? When exactly can you finally color within the lines? Anyhow. I remember small things like that from my childhood. I remember the day I could finally read the word "STOP" on the stop sign. I was like "oh my gosh, it's not just a random scrambling of letters, it says 'stop'! AWESOME!" Then I was really into reading street signs, store signs, and things of that nature. It was literally exhilarating when a jumbling of letters turned into an actual word. You should've been there when i figured out "Yield." Let me tell you, it was a big deal. I really miss those days. When reading "STOP" on a sign was so exciting. I remember that feeling; it was a combination of "that was really cool" and "i'm a friggin genius!!!" I like the combination of those two feelings. It's hard to grab those two emotions together these days. I do try to. For example, I love, and almost need to find out the lyrics to every song I listen to. Strangely, it's uber-satisfying for me to know what those singers are saying. But for some reason, finding out all the words to Lil' Waynes "Lollipop" didnt exactly serve me the same sort of gratification I felt long ago when first learning I could read. I suppose constantly learning new things may be the answer to this, but constant schooling can be exhausting and somewhat tedious. I'm going to end this first blog post for now.